Wednesday, January 11, 2017

The Epiphany 2017

Robert Warren Cromey
January 8, 2017



I read in the newspaper that Christmas sales were up again this year. Or were they down. I forget.

Why do we have the shopping frenzy to buy gifts and presents? Well, you can blame it all on the Three Kings. They brought gifts to the holy family and now we give gifts to our beloved families, friends and even to our rotten relatives.

We have just heard the ancient story of the three kings who travelled many miles through the desert to visit Jesus, Mary and Joseph. They were following a star.  The kings brought Jesus gifts, Gold, Frankincense and myrrh.

They were not Jews. They were Gentiles. The writer of Matthew wanted to tell his readers that the Jesus was not just for the Jews but also for all people.

St. Matthew showed us that the message of Jesus was for all people.

What was the message of Jesus? Shall I give you a quiz?
We are to be truly human. To be truly human is to love, forgive, care for the poor, the homeless, the sick and those facing injustice.

I want to tell you a story about another man who travelled afar in the desert.

In the 1960s TV show Branded, Chuck Connors plays a classic Western figure, Jason McCord--courageous, loyal, yet aloof and alone.  In the first episode, he meets a dying man in the desert and saves his life by giving him water and even carrying him on his own horse--only to find himself held up at gunpoint at an oasis, as the duplicitous Colbee takes McCord's horse and leaves him to walk across the desert, very likely to die in the attempt.  Colbeen explains that he has to do this because he has a wife and two daughters, and so he has to live--and to get to town in time for his daughter's birthday!  McCord survives, and meets up with the Colbee family in town.  A friend urges him to anger and confrontation.  McCord really is angry, and he walks toward Colbee resolutely, as Colbee's two little daughters play around him with their hoops.  McCord, looking at the family, then has a second thought; he turns around and walks away.  As he does, he says over his shoulder, with a wry smile, "Happy Birthday, Janie."

Here is one way to handle anger and move to forgiveness, a basic teaching of Jesus.

Some members of this parish are happy that Donald Trump will be our new president.

Some of us are angry and upset that he is our president elect.

We are a community who call ourselves followers of Jesus.
We are on a life-long quest to learn how to forgive.

Creative Christians will move on, past our upsets, or our self-righteous glee, and into a new life.

We continue to insist:

 That the people living in the tents outside our church have adequate housing.

That all people have adequate food to eat. We try through the Julian pantry.

That legal and illegal immigrants find justice and residency.

That all Americans have adequate medical care.

That there is continual witness for peace in the world.

I have noted over my many years that both Democrats and Republicans do not care much for these basic rights and needs.

We need to stop squawking about the election and get on with the gifts we have been given in following Jesus.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

The light given to everyone

Feast of St. John the Evangelist
John 1: 1-14
The Rev'd Richard Smith, Ph.D.

Back in the days of slavery, there were certain passages of scripture the slaveowners would not allow the slaves to hear. Today’s gospel from John, the patron of this parish, was one of those passages.

This passage is the start of what, for John, will be a new creation story. It begins with the very same words as the old creation story in Genesis: “In the beginning…” And it goes on to speak about everything in the cosmos coming into being. And then it says out of the Creator came life, and that life was a light given to every person. That light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

That divine life, that light, is given to every person--no matter their skin color, or gender, or whether they’re Christian or Muslim or Jewish or card carrying atheists. That divine light was planted deep in every one of our hearts by the one who made us. It is very powerful. The darkness cannot overcome it.

The slave masters were afraid that if the slaves started to really believe they carried in their own selves this powerful divine light, they might begin to see themselves as creatures of vast and infinite beauty and dignity. They might start to resist the slave masters’ brutality and cruelty; they might rise up.

John’s message in today’s gospel has powerful implications.

Women who start to believe it might not be as willing to go along with all the subtle and not-so-subtle manifestations of a rape culture--whether those manifestations come from a President-elect, or at work, or just walking down the street.

Undocumented immigrants might reject the characterizations they are rapists and criminals, might rightfully take pride in their determination against enormous odds to find a way care for their kids, their amazing contributions to this economy and culture. They might refuse to let their families be torn apart by unjust immigration laws.

Let me say this another way drawing from the recent work of Richard Rohr…

Take a look at this fifteenth century icon by the Russian iconographer and mystic Andrei Rublev. It’s called “The Hospitality of Abraham”, or simply “The Trinity”.



There are three primary colors in Rublev’s icon, each illustrating a facet of the Holy One:

  • Gold: “the Father”—perfection, fullness, wholeness, the ultimate Source
  • Blue: “the Incarnate Christ”—both sea and sky mirroring one another (In the icon, Christ wears blue and holds up two fingers, telling us he has put spirit and matter, divinity and humanity, together within himself. The blue of creation is brilliantly undergirded with the necessary red of suffering.)
  • Green: “the Spirit”—the divine photosynthesis that grows everything from within by transforming light into itself (Hildegard of Bingen called this viriditas, or the greening of all things.)

The gaze between the Three shows the deep respect between them as they all share a meal from a common bowl.

Notice the Spirit’s hand points toward the open and fourth place at the table. Is the Holy Spirit inviting, offering, and clearing space?

At the front of the table there appears to be a little rectangular hole. Some art historians believe the remaining glue on the original icon indicates that there was perhaps once a mirror glued to the front of the table. There was room at this table for a fourth.

That fourth person is you, the observer. You—and all of creation—are invited to sit at the divine table.

This is the Christmas mystery. As one of the most ancient prayers of the church says, God humbled himself to take on our humanity so we might share in God’s divinity.

This is who we each are: beloved creatures, bearers of a divine light that is powerful and can never be overcome, welcomed into the very life of God.

Our task is to claim that dignity.

The problem is we forget who we are, lose touch with that light and life the Creator planted deep in our hearts. All around us, we hear so many messages to the contrary:You’re too old, or too you. Too skinny, or too fat. The wrong color or gender or sexual orientation. If we’re not careful, we can unconsciously start believing those voices.

Which is why we need other people to remind us now and then of our own profound beauty and dignity that no one, not even we on our worst days, can take away.

Cleve Jones, one of the leaders in the modern gay rights movement, says that when he was a kid, he never knew any other gay people existed. He thought he was the only one who felt and experienced the world and people as he did. After being beaten and bullied several times at school, he began to quietly stash away whatever pills he could find, thinking someday he might use them to commit suicide.

Then he found a copy of Life magazine that told about some homosexuals in San Francisco, the culture they were forming, the movement they were creating. He stumbled across authors like Oscar Wilde, Virginia Woolf, Allen Ginsberg and eventually came to believe that he was not alone.

Once he discovered there was a community of people who were like him, who could understand and welcome him, Cleve says he flushed all those pills down the toilet. A few years later, he arrived in San Francisco, joined the movement for LGBT rights, and the rest is history.

Sometimes we lose touch with the unique dignity and beauty given us by the Creator. We forget who we are: bearers of God’s own light, invited into his very life. We need other people to help us see it.

It’s why we need communities like this one at St. John's where we gather week after week to immerse ourselves once more in the ancient stories, and share this meal, and remember not only God's mighty deeds in history and who Jesus is, but also who we are.

I hope we in this crazy community can be this reminder to each other in the year ahead; each of us in sheer awe of the beauty and dignity and dignity the Creator has given us, reminding each other of theirs.

Let me close with a poem by Jan Richardson...
Blessed Are You Who Bear the Light Blessed are you who bear the light
in unbearable times,
who testify to its endurance
amid the unendurable,
who bear witness to its persistence
when everything seems in shadow and grief.
Blessed are you
in whom
the light lives,
in whom
the brightness blazes—
your heart a chapel,
an altar
where in the deepest night
can be seen the fire
that shines forth
in you
in unaccountable faith,
in stubborn hope,
in love that illumines
every broken thing it finds.

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Christmas 2016

A sermon by the Rev. Deacon Jacqueline Cherry
Christmas Eve, Year C, 2016



The birth we have been waiting for, preparing for, is happening, now.
Let heaven and nature sing!

Do you know what it sounds like when a baby is born? Birth mothers, and those who have witnessed the birth of a baby, know that it is anything but silent. The pain of labor obliterates any sense of decorum. In the hallways outside the delivery room, grunts, cries, heaves and four-letter words are easily heard. Like it or not, if we believe in the Incarnation, we must also believe that Jesus’ birth, too, was noisy and messy. Certainly there are differences - instead of the beeps and alarms of today’s medical equipment, Mary and Joseph were likely deafened by brays and bleats. Tempting as it is to marvel at the sudden appearance of the angel and heavenly host, Luke’s birth narrative begs us to remain grounded. On this holy night, all of heaven is focused on the birth of a baby boy. An ordinary birth like ours, and the births of our ancestors before us, and the births of our descendants to come.

Luke tells us that the glory of the Lord shone around the shepherds as an angel proclaimed, I am bringing you good news of great joy for all the people.

Again, don’t focus on the angel, rather pay attention to whom the angel is speaking. It is the shepherds in the fields who are the first to be told that Jesus was born. If that holy birth had happened tonight, in 2016, the angel might appear to migrant workers, or perhaps to those living in the tent encampments right outside our church. Before all others, God wanted the lowly shepherds, the powerless and the displaced, to be the first to hear the good news of the Messiah’s birth.

In those days a decree went out from Emperor Augustus that all the world should be registered. While the Emperor was busy with the state census, a young unwed mother gave birth in a stable to the King of kings. God slipped into this world through the birth of a fragile infant. Indeed, it is good news of great joy for all the people. Except for the Emperor; to the powers that be, the birth of Jesus is treasonous.

With haste, the shepherds went to Bethlehem where they found Mary and Joseph, and the child lying in the manger. And the news of the Savior’s birth spread rapidly, from one tent encampment to the next, through homeless shelters and soup kitchens, under the highways, across neighborhoods. Have you heard the good news? The one who will cast down the mighty from their thrones has been born.

The field dorms in Watsonville and the Central Valley buzzed. The one who will fill the hungry with good things has been born.

Drug addicts in dark doorways startled awake. The one who will lift up the lowly has been born.

En masse they marched - the unemployed, oppressed, undocumented, disabled, addicted - together they moved east to see this thing that had taken place.

Shoulder-to- shoulder the people assembled. With each arriving sojourner, the crowd parted just enough to welcome them in. All eyes were fixed on a newborn baby wrapped in bands of cloth. At first the whispers were barely audible. Then ever so softly these words could be heard repeated over and over again, each time in a different voice: To you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is the Messiah, the Lord.

Looking into the eyes of an old Nicaraguan woman, a man in torn clothes gently placed the baby in her arms; To you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is the Messiah, the Lord.

In turn, the old woman handed the infant to a 16-year- old runaway standing next to her; To you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is the Messiah, the Lord.

While I realize some among us are feeling grateful for a year full of blessings, there are many of us in despair. During these past four weeks of Advent, we knew exactly what to expect come Christmas Eve, and we have gathered to celebrate his birth. But looking forward, the future is full of uncertainty and fear.

As Michelle Obama recently explained, We are feeling what not having hope feels like.

Homeless or hungry, afraid or depressed, we are all shepherds tonight. We are the first to hear the good news of the Messiah’s birth, the good news that God has joined us in flesh. However, it is a disservice to Mary to proclaim this night silent and calm.

When an angel tells a shepherd; Or a prophet tells a slave; Or a community organizer tells a refugee, To you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is the Messiah, the Lord, it is a call to action, not a time to go Christmas shopping.

Although the shepherds didn’t see what was coming, let alone understand what had already come to pass, Mary had birthed a revolution. Her song, The Magnificat, is our rallying cry to scatter the proud, cast down the mighty, and liberate the oppressed. The message is clear, Jesus has no tolerance for bullying tyrants – emperors, presidents, kings – rulers who are rich and arrogant are offensive to God. And as Christians they should be offensive to us too. Jesus always stands with the powerless and the poor.

Do you know what it sounds like when a baby is born? It sounds the same as the birth of a Messiah – it’s noisy and messy. There are grunts, cries, heaves and four-letter words. In fact, it sounds a lot like the corner of 15 th St. and Julian Ave. When a baby is born, it’s never silent. But as with all of God’s creation, it is always holy.

Amen.

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Are you the one who is to come?

Third Sunday of Advent, Year A 
December 11, 2016
Richard Smith


When John the Baptist had announced the coming of God’s kingdom and proclaimed Jesus as God’s anointed, he expected the world to change.

But nothing seemed to change; in fact, things had gotten worse. Rome continued its oppressive occupation of their lands, and religious leaders continued their policies of appeasement while getting rich off of their own people. Crowds no longer listened to John's powerful call for change at the Jordan River. Now, John was in prison, and, in fact, whether he knew it or not, on death row.

So, from the brink of despair for himself and the people he loved, John sends his disciple to ask Jesus, a question: “Are you the one who is to come, or are we to wait for another?”

We had desperately hoped you might be, but now we’re not so sure.

Words of anxiety and quiet desperation…

Words echoed in our own hearts and our own world today.

I recall talking to an old woman in a nursing home years ago. She knew her death was not far off. She said, “You know, I’ve been a believer all my life. Always had a deep faith in God. But now my time is getting close, and, well, I just can’t help but wonder…”

Quiet desperation about the very meaning of her own life.

And the other night I was at a meeting in the neighborhood. The mother of Mario Woods was there. Mario was the young man killed by police a year ago in the Bayview. At that meeting, his mother, with tears in her eyes, was pleading with the District Attorney for justice in her son’s case. She told him,
There are days I say, "I had a son. I had a baby son." I have to say his name out loud. He used to be here. And he mattered.
There are so many mothers you have to pray for, so many sleepless nights, so many dragging themselves out of bed.
Quiet desperation.

Just after the long night of the last election, the rapper Macklemore wrote these lyrics:
Mad world, mad world, that's what the TV said
Imagine tryna keep your head
While your daughter sleeps in bed
And when she wakes up, will the world be the same?
Will my girl be afraid in the home of the brave?
See I hope, I hope, that it's gon' be alright
But what a hell of a night.
Quiet desperation.

And when Jesus hears John’s question of quiet desperation--“Are you the one who is to come, or are we to wait for another?”--he does not answer him directly. Instead, he points to what he’s doing, as if to say, "Here's what I do. You can decide for yourself whether I am the one you're waiting for."

What Jesus is doing is restoring things that were missing.
The blind receive their sight, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the poor have good news brought to them.
What he’s doing in his own ministry is playing out what the prophet Isaiah had dreamed in today’s first reading. It’s a dream of restoration: That which was missing is found: sight, mobility, hearing, life, the sparkle in one’s eyes.

It’s a longing deep inside our fragile human hearts--this desire to be restored to wholeness.

Because in this world we lose things: sometimes we lose our car keys or cell phones, sometimes it’s a job or a dear friend; aging bodies can lose their looks and their lustiness; mothers can lose their sons.

And sometimes just to get along in the world we can lose parts of ourselves. The poet Robert Bly personally describes these lost parts of ourselves as “a long bag we drag behind us.”
When we were one or two years old we had what we might call a 360-degree personality...but one day we noticed that our parents didn’t like certain parts...They said things like: “Can’t you be still?” Or “It isn’t nice to try and kill your brother.” Behind us we have an invisible bag, and the part of us our parents don’t like, we, to keep our parents’ love, put in the bag. By the time we go to school our bag is quite large. Then our teachers have their say: “Good children don’t get angry over such little things.” So we take our anger and put it in the bag. By the time my brother and I were twelve in Madison, Wisconsin, we were known as “the nice Bly boys.” Our bags were already a mile long.
Of course, these lost parts of ourselves do not stay in the bag forever. Eventually they demand to be heard and integrated in a more life-giving way. The longing to be whole again runs very deep in us and must have its say.

This restored wholeness--whether the finding of lost keys or a lost son, or a society restored to its own best values after a divisive and corrupt election, or a self fully alive and at peace with itself--this wholeness, the ancient prophet tells us, is our future; it is our destiny, what God made us for.

This dream of restoration is what we are to hold onto in these Advent days.

And this future we dream of is already on the way. In fact, it already shapes how we are right now.

We know from psychologists how the past shapes our present. Past experiences, pleasures, traumas, even from the time we’re still in our mothers’ wombs, shape who we have become and how we understand and respond to our present moment.

But our present is shaped not only by our past but also by our future. The future we perceive shapes how we stand and what we do right now.

Here’s a metaphor. Pretend I’m about to toss you an orange. Imagine how you stand physically, how you hold your hands in order to catch it. Now imagine I’m tossing you a dish towel. How do you stand, how do you hold your hands to catch it? How about if I throw you a chair?

You get the point. The way we stand, our posture and what we do is shaped by what we see coming toward us.

Similarly, how we live our lives right now, what we do, how we spend our time and energy is shaped by the future we perceive coming toward us.

If, for example, you imagine with George Orwell that “the future is a boot stamping on a human face -- forever”, this will shape how you are in the present--perhaps causing you to cower, or defiantly clench your fist and your jaws, or anxiously hoard what little you have in a universe that you perceive to be brutal and cruel.

But if, with the ancient prophet and with Jesus, you imagine the future to be a world restored, where broken relationships are healed, where our fragmented selves and world are made whole again, then this vision will likewise shape how you are now.
  • If in the world to come there will be no more tears, then we wipe the tears from each other’s eyes now.
  • If in the world to come, there will be no more wars, no more violence, then we let the weapons fall from our hands now.
  • If in the world to come, everyone will be welcomed, with enough to eat, a safe place to sleep, then we resist the building of walls and the violence against people of color and of other religions, and we throw open our doors to welcome the homeless and immigrants, trans people and Muslims.
This prophetic dream of restoration has work for us to do right now. It asks us to resist going numb when the world within or beyond us is falling apart and fragmented.

In the height of despair, in the deepest darkness, this ancient prophetic dream calls us to open our hearts, our eyes, our hands, to engage the world when it breaks our hearts. This dream, passed to us from our spiritual ancestors and now part of our spiritual DNA, this dream goes with us, step by step, providing the sustenance we most need.

This is the dream that can, if we let it, carry us through these harsh, wintry Advent days.

Let me close with a poem by Jan Richardson.
So may we know
the hope
that is not just
for someday
but for this day—
here, now,
in this moment
that opens to us:

hope not made
of wishes
but of substance,

hope made of sinew
and muscle
and bone,

hope that has breath
and a beating heart,

hope that will not
keep quiet
and be polite,

hope that knows
how to holler
when it is called for,

hope that knows
how to sing
when there seems
little cause,

hope that raises us
from the dead—

not someday
but this day,
every day,
again and
again and
again.

Sunday, December 4, 2016

How The Light Gets In

Sara Warfield, 2nd Week of Advent
Episcopal Church of St. John the Evangelist December 4, 2016


I love Advent. After an almost interminable Ordinary Time, we suddenly but quietly, it seems to me, pull out the blues and purples, and we enter into the darkness. With intention. With quiet anticipation.

In this part of the world, Advent comes as we approach literally our shortest days of the year, and I know a lot of us have felt as though a different kind of darkness has descended since November 8 th . It feels like the beginning of a very long night indeed. I’ve been stumbling through these weeks, not sure how to find my bearings. Groping around, wondering how to move forward. I feel so lost. So like a child lost at the grocery store, I’ve just stopped, stayed in the same place, and watched for someone I recognize.

In stopping, though, I’ve started to notice something about this long night. In this long night, it’s hard to really see one another. When it’s dark, we can only make out the obvious features. We hear a Spanish accent, or an Evangelical quoting scripture from the King James Bible. We notice the woman in a hijab, or the man under a blanket on the sidewalk. We see black skin, or a red cap that reads Make America Great Again.

When it’s dark, we use this limited information instinctively to do one thing: to determine if that person is a threat. And I say that with no judgment. That’s just how we were built. The oldest part of our brain, the part of our brain that evolved first, just wants us to survive and so constantly scans the environment for threats. It’s sensitive. It’s reactive. It’s fight or flight. Like a wild animal.

There were some animals in our readings today. The prophet Isaiah imagines an ideal world, or in our tradition’s language, a kingdom come, where:
The wolf shall live with the lamb,
   the leopard shall lie down with the kid,
the calf and the lion and the fatling together,
   and a little child shall lead them.
The cow and the bear shall graze,
   their young shall lie down together;
   and the lion shall eat straw like the ox.
Isaiah lived in a time of a long night. His land was under attack. The Assyrians had become the dominant power in the region, wolves who posed a constant threat to Israel’s survival. Those who could fight had a weapon by their side. And for those who couldn’t fight, I imagine a sort of restless fear. The two options were aggression or suspicion. Everyone was afraid, lambs bunkered down, hoping somehow to withstand the stronger force.

But Isaiah imagines a different way of being. A kingdom to come where lambs can be lambs and wolves can be wolves, and they can live together in peace.

But as we sit in our own long night, we wonder, how? How is this possible? In all of our differences, in all of the ways we feel threatened by one another, in all of the ways we seek to dominate each other. How?

Most mornings, I listen to music on my bart ride to the city. I’ve been listening to a contemporary Advent song, a millennial hymn, you might say. The song, by The Brilliance, is called “May You Find a Light” and the verse that has stuck with me says:
There are weary travelers
Searching everywhere you go
Strangers who are searching
Longing deeply to be known
Who of us is not longing deeply to be known? Who of us has not sought out our tribe? People who look like us. Love like us. Create like us. Believe like us. We look for similarities, for affinities, points of connection to join us together in community. I think it’s why a lot of us are here this morning. These communities help us to feel like we are known, like we are seen, and they make us feel safe. We find our wolf groups, our lamb groups, our lion groups, our bear groups, our ox groups. And in those groups, we can rest. I’m glad we have these places to go.

I want you to love the lamb you are. The wolf you are. The bear you are. The ox you are. But becoming who we are, and loving who we are, only gets us part of the way to Isaiah’s vision of peace, or what we call the kingdom to come.

The one we wait for during this season of Advent calls us to widen our field of knowing, to expand who we see as our neighbors, who we deem worthy of our love and care. There is only one thing I know of that connects every single one of us. One thing that every one of us shares. We have all suffered. To have this flesh, this human experience, means to suffer.

Isn’t that the power of this season? God comes down to inhabit this flesh. This earth. This mess. Emmanuel, God with us, God inhabiting our brokenness. Through Jesus, God suffers with us. Through Jesus, we are known.

Most of you know that I spend my days serving as a street chaplain. I spend much of that time with the men and women who come for sacred sleep through the Gubbio Project, both here and at St. Boniface Catholic Church in the Tenderloin. Most of what I do is check in on folks. “How are you doing today?” When I’m here, I hang out in the courtyard and shoot the breeze with the regulars out there.

There’s one man I see most times I’m here. He’s always well dressed. He always smiles and gives me a hug and tells me that his favorite aunt’s name is Sara. I always ask him how he’s doing, and he always says he’s doing well. This past week, though, when I asked him how he’s doing, he looked down. I smelled alcohol on his breath, and he said with a sad smile, “they took me to detox last night, but…” and he trailed off. From there, a story poured out. How he hasn’t talked to his children in five years. How he missed their graduation because of his drinking. How he was clean for ten years but then he wasn’t. I drink by myself, he kept saying. I just need to go somewhere and get clean by myself.

I put my arm around him and felt something right here in my chest. I recognized his desire to be alone, how I don’t want anyone to see me when I’m falling apart. And I named that suffering out loud. “I know when I want to hide that I’m feeling ashamed,” I said. His head dropped, and he started to cry. I held him and tried to keep back the tears in my eyes.

To be a chaplain means to encounter people in their suffering, and to be willing to know them in all the ways that life has cracked them open. But in order to do that, I have to open myself to the ways my life has cracked me open. How I grew up with a pastor who told me that if I just had enough faith, I wouldn’t have asthma attacks. Who preached that gay people are going to hell, and so I always thought of myself as a condemned outsider.

I know that these cracks cause me to lash out in fear sometimes. To see others as threats. To retreat to the comfort of my tribe and never leave. I also know that the ways I have been broken have helped me connect to others who also think of themselves as condemned outsiders.

And together we have experienced healing.

I don’t know how life has cracked you open. I don’t know the loss you’ve experienced. I don’t know who has caused you harm or how. I don’t know your addictions, your fears. And I don’t know how you try to cover up those cracks. Maybe you avoid conflict. Or maybe you create it. Maybe you hide the cracks by always putting on a smile. Maybe you give, give, give until you have nothing left for yourself.

What I do know is that we all have brokenness of some sort, and it gives us a shared language through which we might connect, a way to be with one another through all of our differences.

An awesome man named Leonard once sung, there is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in. In this Advent season, we wait for Jesus to break in through the cracks of this
world, and the cracks in us, to bring light.

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Zacchaeus


The Rev'd Richard Smith, Ph.D.
PROPER 26
Twenty-fourth Sunday after Pentecost
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The other day, I was having coffee with a friend who, many years ago, was a gang member. He got swept up into “the life” when he was a teenager, before he could fully understand what was going on. His family was very poor and needed money, but there were no jobs. So he signed up, got “jumped” into one of the gangs, sold drugs to make money for his family, defended his gang’s turf.

He got into violent combat with rival gangs. And he drove more than one of his best friends to the hospital, watching them bleed to death on the way from gunshot wounds. He called them by their nicknames as he told their stories: Gato, Chuy, Boxer, Mono, Tiny.

When I walk through the neighborhood with him nowadays, his jaws start to clench, his eyes get red, sometimes tears well up. There’s not a street corner in this neighborhood that doesn’t carry the traumatic memory of a friend who once hung out there, who was eventually killed there.

As a teenager wanting to help support his family, my friend had become trapped in a corrupt system that was bigger than him, that he neither understood nor controlled.

Welcome to today’s gospel story about Zacchaeus, the tax collector. Like my ex-gang member friend, he, too, had become caught in a violent and corrupt system. Despite the money it provided, the life of a tax collector was a trap.

Maybe his is a story about you and me, each of us our own kind of Zacchaeus. Each of us caught up in a corrupt system beyond our understanding and control.

Preachers have given Zacchaeus a bad rap. This stems from a mistranslation of the original Greek that Luke wrote his gospel in. I’ll get to that later.

First, just to recap, Zacchaeus was a Jewish man who worked as a wealthy tax collector for the Romans. They were brutally occupying Israel at the time, slaughtering innocent Jews, eventually destroying their sacred temple. Because Zacchaeus was collaborating with the Romans, his fellow Jews considered him a traitor.

How did a Roman tax collector get wealthy? By extorting and embezzling. By taking advantage of the elderly, exploiting the working poor, and taking care of his cronies.

Zacchaeus is not only a traitor to his own people, but also is assumed to be corrupt and deserving of our disdain.

And he was short. When Jesus passed through Jericho, Zacchaeus was so eager to get a look he did something utterly undignified for a man of his station. He ran ahead of the crowd, climbed into a tree, then waited for Jesus to pass by. It would be like a powerful Washington lobbyist or a Wall Street exec shimmying up a street lamppost during a presidential parade.

When Jesus reached that spot, he looked up, saw Zacchaeus, told him to come down, and invited himself to dinner. And so Zacchaeus climbed down and "welcomed Jesus gladly."

The response of the crowd was predictable. Luke says "they began to mutter, ‘Look,’ they said, ‘Jesus has gone to be the guest of a sinner.'"

But Zacchaeus stands his ground against the muttering crowd. And this is where the mistranslation happens. It’s about the tense of the Greek verbs.

Stay with me here.

In the English translation we heard this morning, the verbs are in the future tense. “Half of my possessions...I will give to the poor; and if I have defrauded anyone of anything, I will pay back four times as much." In this interpretation, Zacchaeus is a sinner who repents and resolves to turn over a new leaf. From this point forward he will make restitution.
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But this is a mistranslation. As more recent scholars have noted, the Greek verbs are and should be translated as present tense. In this interpretation, Zacchaeus is standing his ground before the muttering crowd by explaining what he is already doing: "Lord, I always give half of my wealth to the poor, and whenever I discover any fraud or discrepancy I always make a fourfold restitution."

He’s been going way beyond all the legal requirements. He is, in short, a hidden saint whom people have made all sorts of false assumptions about. The crowd had demonized Zacchaeus. But Jesus now praises him as "a son of Abraham."

This story fits with many others in which Jesus mentions several unlikely heroes — the Roman soldier with faith deeper than any Israelite’s, a "good" Samaritan, the Samaritan leper who was the only person to give thanks for his healing, not to mention that other tax collector at the back of the temple who was more righteous than the holier-than-thou Pharisee.

So maybe this story is not about a sinner who shocks us by repenting, but about the crowd that has demonized him. Maybe it’s about a good man, like my ex-gang member friend, trying to find a way through a corrupt system he neither understands nor controls.

Maybe it’s a story about you and me, each of us our own kind of Zacchaeus. Because we, too, are caught up in corrupt systems beyond our understanding and control.

Most of us are citizens of this nation founded on the enslavement of black people and the genocide of Native Americans, horrific legacies all-too-apparent to this day from Ferguson to Standing Rock. A nation that has wreaked unbelievable pain on the countries of Central America and so many other places in the world, engaging in torture, forcing people to flee for their lives.

And we’re part of a larger church that has it’s own history, has condoned slavery, unleashed nothing short of cultural genocide on Native Americans through our boarding schools, forced baptisms, and other missionary efforts; a church responsible for the spiritual if not outright sexual abuse of women, queers, children.

Like Zacchaeus in today’s gospel, like my ex-gang member friend, we, too, are good people who are nevertheless caught up in deadly, corrupt systems of both church and state that we do not fully understand or control. Caught up in what some theologians describe as an original sin that both precedes and transcends us as individuals.

But we are nevertheless part of that sin and it is part of us. So, like Zacchaeus, we do everything we can to make things different.

It’s about living in these in-between times, in a broken world still in progress, in which the reign of God has not fully arrived.

And so we at St. John’s come to this table each week, pilgrims in a broken world, seeking food for the journey and supporting each other along the way--“walking each other home,” as Ram Dass would say.

Because although this world is very broken, and although our efforts can seem so small and insignificant, still, like Zacchaeus, we, too, can stand our ground, let our light shine a bit.

In this broken world, I hope you are as proud as I am of what we have been able do as a community.

  • In a time of growing inequity and displacement, unhoused people find in these walls each weekday morning a safe dry place for much needed sleep and food
  • On any given Saturday, our pantry serves as many as 200 people
  • In both our Nightwalks and our vigils at Mission Police Station, we call for an end to the violence wracking our neighborhood, whether it comes from the gangs or from the police. Many of our neighbors honk their horns and give us thumbs ups when they see us on the street.
  • We started and continue to support Mission Graduates, helping local kids through high school and on to college.
  • In Nicaragua, ravaged for so long by our own country, many of us have worked alongside local people building latrines and wash stations, and providing fresh, clean water. The next work trip is already being planned.
  • More recently, we’ve begun discerning how we can help the many young people arriving at our door step after fleeing for their lives from Central America.
  • The Native Aztec community for many years was told by clergy that their ancient ceremonies were devil worship and performing them would mean everlasting hellfire. But here at St. John’s, our Native brothers and sisters in the Danzantes Xitlali find a welcome space to practice their beautiful dances and celebrate their ancient stories, ancestral teachings, and rituals.
  • Similarly, our Buddhist friends in Mission Dharma continue to find this space a blessing to themselves and many spiritual seekers from around the City.

Soon we’ll be taking our souls to the polls to vote the values we cherish here each Sunday.

I hope you are as proud of these things as I am. And during this Stewardship season, I hope they are part of your discernment as you consider how much St. John’s is worth to you, how much to give financially in the coming year.

Like Zacchaeus, we are broken and incomplete people in a broken and incomplete world. But also like Zacchaeus, we try to be, as Gandhi would say, the change we hope to see in the world.

Let me close with a prayer I’ve used from time to time, words attributed to Archbishop Oscar Romero.
It helps, now and then, to step back and take a long view.
The kingdom is not only beyond our efforts, it is even beyond our vision.
We accomplish in our lifetime only a tiny fraction of the magnificent enterprise that is God's work. Nothing we do is complete, which is a way of saying that the Kingdom always lies beyond us. 
No statement says all that could be said.
No prayer fully expresses our faith.
No confession brings perfection.
No pastoral visit brings wholeness.
No program accomplishes the Church's mission.
No set of goals and objectives includes everything. 
This is what we are about.
We plant the seeds that one day will grow.
We water seeds already planted, knowing that they hold future promise.
We lay foundations that will need further development.
We provide yeast that produces far beyond our capabilities. 
We cannot do everything, and there is a sense of liberation in realizing that.
This enables us to do something, and to do it very well.
It may be incomplete, but it is a beginning, a step along the way, an opportunity for the Lord's grace to enter and do the rest. 
We may never see the end results, but that is the difference between the master builder and the worker.
We are workers, not master builders; ministers, not messiahs.
We are prophets of a future not our own.

Sunday, October 2, 2016

Faith the Size of a Mustard Seed

Richard Smith
PROPER 22 (27)
Twentieth Sunday after Pentecost




Just prior to the gospel passage we just heard, Jesus has wrapped up a series of teachings:

  • About the prodigal son who wanders far from home and is then welcomed back by his dad; 
  • About not being able to serve God if you’re gaming the economic system to make yourself rich at the expense of others: “You cannot serve both God and Mammon.”
  • About the greedy rich man who would not heed Lazarus, the poor man at his gate; 
  • About never causing one of the little ones to stumble 
  • About forgiving over and over and over. 

It’s a lot. The disciples are overwhelmed. They want to live this new way, but they’re not sure they have the necessary spiritual resources. Not sure if they’re up to the task.

So, in today’s passage, they look look outside themselves for help. They say to him, “Lord, increase our faith.” And he tells them they’ve already got all the faith, all the spiritual resources they need to live this new way. It only takes a mustard seed of faith. You have everything you need.

This passage parallels another exchange between Jesus and his disciples, one that some of us prayed about at last Sunday’s mini-retreat. In that story, Jesus has had compassion on the crowd because they are like sheep without a shepherd, and he has taught them many things.

As night descends, the disciples perceive a problem they don’t know how to solve. “This is a deserted place, and the hour is very late. Send the crowd away to the surrounding country and villages so they can buy themselves something to eat.”

Jesus responds sharply, “You give them something to eat.” The disciples’ immediate response is to focus on their lack. “Are we to go and buy two hundred denarii worth of bread?” If the disciples are to feed people, they need more than they have. They must go and buy from others. They perceive the situation as impossible unless they bring in something from the outside.

When the disciples confront a new situation, they look at their own spiritual resources and find themselve lacking. (Shea, John. The Relentless Widow: The Spiritual Wisdom of the Gospels for Christian Preachers and Teachers. Collegeville, MN: Liturgical Press, 2004.)

It’s true for us. Standing against things like racism and misogyny and homophobia and all the mighty economic and political systems of our world can seem so overwhelming. Like trying to uproot a mulberry tree with its vast and expansive roots and branches and commanding it to hurl itself into the sea.

Maybe you wonder if you have the courage and the clarity of vision and the stamina to pull it off.

But you do, Jesus tells you. You have everything you need.

Jesus sees more in us than we see in ourselves. He is continually urging us to understand ourselves differently, to reconsider what we can, in fact, do. He directs us inside and asks us to reappraise what we might bring to our situation.

Here are some words from a psychotherapist who is working with a particular client. The psychotherapist writes:
I remember one client who described himself as a “wimp.” A mid-level bank manager, he felt pushed around, bullied, and generally ineffectual. In talking about his job, his eyes became glassy, his voice turned to a monotone, and his shoulders drooped. I found myself feeling very tired in therapy. In search of some spark in his life, I shifted the focus to his earlier years and discovered that not only had he put himself through school by working two jobs, he had been on the boxing team in college, and flew airplanes on the weekend--hardly the behavior of a wimp. When he talked about flying, he fairly crackled with energy. He seemed surprised when I commented on the difference between his style at work and his style behind the controls of his airplane. The key moment in therapy came when he recognized that his problem was not a “chronically wimpy personality”, but a failure to identify and tap into his resources. He pinpointed the solution when he said, “I guess I need to fly at work, huh?” My client Illustrated an important point: People cannot cope with tools they do not believe they have. (The Psychology of Religion and Coping, 99 - 105, cited in Shea, John. The Relentless Widow: The Spiritual Wisdom of the Gospels for Christian Preachers and Teachers)
If we do not know what we have, we cannot use it to achieve what we aspire to. Jesus in this passage is trying to convince the disciples, including us, that we are not wimps, but people who can fly into exploring a new and different world.

Today we begin our stewardship season. There’s an obvious practical side to this conversation: we can’t maintain this sacred and beautiful space without money; and we need money to pay our part-time staff of a music director, a parish admin, and a vicar.

But in addition to these practical concerns, which you’ll hear more about later, this season is also an occasion for some profound and necessary spiritual work. It raises some important spiritual questions:

  • Whether we envision our lives through the filter of abundance or scarcity
  • Are we filled with gratitude?
  • What kind of persons do you and I want to be? 
  • Whom do we want to belong to?

Our stewardship emerges when we recognize what we have; it comes from our sense of abundance. Gratitude begins to well up inside.

  • When you woke up this morning, chances are you slept on a comfortable bed. 
  • There was breakfast to eat and perhaps a glass of juice or a good cup of coffee or tea to sip. 
  • You put clean clothes on. 

For most of us, this is the way it has been nearly every day of our lives. We see evidence of the Creator’s care and provision all around us.

  • We hear the birds singing in the morning. 
  • The sun rises, rain falls to water the earth, and year after year so many plants provide oxygen and food for our bodies. 
  • We are not only provided for but lavished with good gifts: companionship, meaningful work, music, the beauty of nature and cultures, the good sensations of movement—walking, running, swimming, dancing, the joy of sexuality, and a sense of destiny and yearning for the divine mystery. 

Life itself, every day, is a gift that ancient voices once described as the very breath of God (Genesis 2:7).  (Scandrette, Mark. Free: Spending Your Time and Money on What Matters Most. InterVarsity Press. Downers Grove, IL: IVP Books, 2013.)

We embrace the abundance of life by practicing gratitude and trust. This gratitude makes for a life that does not skimp, but throws itself generously and with gusto into this crazy and wonderful world.

Its out of that same sense of abundance and gratitude that we steward this community, both financially and otherwise.

  • This community with its beautiful array of skin colors, ages, sexual orientations, and economic classes, 
  • This beautiful sacred space where we and others come to pray and meditate, and where our unhoused sisters and brothers find a quiet, safe place to sleep, 
  • The things we do from here: 
  • Distributing bags of fresh produce each Saturday morning 
  • Hosting a free community dinner twice each month
  • Leading Nightwalks to end neighborhood violence and doggedly holding out the hope--despite all evidence to the contrary--that things can be different
  • Vigils for Amilcar and the other victims of police violence at Mission station 
  • Visits to City Hall and meetings throughout the neighborhood to stem the displacement of families and seniors and fight for more affordable housing

At the foundation of our stewardship are abundance and gratitude; these are at the heart of whatever else any of us might say these coming days.

In these stewardship days, Jesus sees in us possibilities we often fail to see in ourselves. Throughout the scriptures he struggled with all the art at his command to show us the abundance, the beauty, the faith he sees in us.

What he sees are mulberry trees, one after the other, on their way to the sea. ((Shea, John. The Relentless Widow: The Spiritual Wisdom of the Gospels for Christian Preachers and Teachers.)